4 course dinner party with homemade banoffee pie and all sorts of deliciousness. Old school board games with intense competition and giggles. The same New Years Kiss that I’ve now had SIX years in a row :) Midnight skinny dipping. Crashing a mansion party. And little too much bubbly.
2013 you have gotten off to a cracking start!
Stop making life hard for yourself. Just because you have faced mountains; and I don’t underestimate your Everests, it does not mean that all of life has to be a battle.
You deserve the love that is given to you. Stop battling it. Stop questioning it. Stop worrying that it’s all too good to be true.
You deserve to be surrounded by people who celebrate you and enjoy your company. So stop avoiding the friends who do just that.
You deserve to reep the fruits of your effort. So stop procrastinating in the hopes that you can control your failures. You can’t. And besides, you have failed before and picked yourself up just fine.
This year you will laugh, cry, and feel everything. No more protecting yourself from the pain. No more fear. It’s time to put aside all that has happened and stop punishing yourself for something outside of your control. It’s time to begin again.
When I see my boyfriend in his work clothes, I genuinely think my ovaries start to ache. I’m sorry but my man looks mighty fine all gussied up.
Turns out I have femoral anteversion, which basically means that my left knee points towards and across my other knee. This has caused my whole left side to tighten up in an effort to pull the knee into the right position when running. Short term, we try to strengthen up my lefthand side to be able to cope with the strain of my misaligned knee. Long term, not sure right now.
I’m so scared. I love running, and only runners will understand how much. I don’t want this taken away from me. Please don’t take this away from me.
After a disastrous run yesterday that ended in tears and a bandaged up knee, I now have a physio appointment booked for 3:15. I’m trying not to panic, but seriously… Why can’t I just run?
At this point I am mostly speechless. How can I even begin to write how I feel about the last five years? Or even how I feel about you?
We’ve seen so much pain in the last five years. We went from being naive kids to worldly adults way before our time. Before we knew it we were dealing with death, illness and loss on a daily occurrence. Looking back I don’t know how we got through it. How did we pull through all that darkness and remain so in love? I look at you and feel old beyond our years. You have been committed to me in ways that many grown men aren’t committed to their wives. You have cared for and protected me for as long as I can remember. When all is said and done, we both know that I am alive because of you. I am whole because of you.
So, my love, today I just want to reaffirm everything I have felt since I was 14 years old. You are my adventure, you are my best friend, you are my companion, my better half, my soul mate. I can’t wait to do the rest of life with you :)
I love you